Tears..

Sometimes, ppl tend to put on a strong front.. not because they want to but they have to.. to protect their pride.. to protect their job.. to protect their life so it won't collapse..

Somehow, I have this pair of eyes that can see through loads of things.. and tonight, I saw through this little girl who appears to be enjoying her new job so much because it poses so many challenges.. but in actual fact, it is way out of her comfort zone.. I saw through.. also because I've been dating this lovely girl for 3yrs + already.. I know where is her comfort zone and where is not.. and as far as I've went to push her to come out and be a lady, focused in whatever she do and be rugged.. there're some buttons I never tried to push because I know it'll cause her tears and loads of hurts..

But this job does. And its good.. For once, I found our training to be so fruitful because she is so focused.. the moment she stepped into my house, she ate, got changed and went to the washroom, then got her bike out in a matter of 15mins.. thats so unlike of her. super efficient babe. I like.

However, I know tonite has to be that nite.. when she gets relieved..

So I saw this pimple behind her back.. and I know she can't stand pain.. so I decided to give this strong front an excuse to cry some tears and get the thing flowing..

It worked.. and I hope my talking to her has resolved her culture shocked state of mind and also helped her set her record/target straight on what is she trying to achieve and not over trying to be what she can't be in 3 days.

You can't train up to be a 100m sprinter over 3 days if you hasn't been running at all for the past 22 yrs aint it?

Sometimes, its just very hard for the ones involved to be so clear headed.. especially if the one involved is an ambitious one who cares TOO MUCH for other's perception of her behaviors and existence even for her own good.

I guess the time for change has finally come.. and our relationship will now go through a real phase of work/sports/pte time juggling. Which I am glad.. because I'm ready to see her morph from the cocoon into a beautiful butterfly..

Cheers,
Sinned Cyclist.

PS: Training is good tonite.. :) and its gonna get better than ever.