FT Island - Always be Mine

Lovely song. They're Koreans.. pretty good english i must say. Better than the opposite of the "Sun".




I hear you breathe your lying close to me
the shadow's gone I enfold my peace (?)
You make me calm with you I'm safe and warm
Enlight by yourside are strength to the night till eternity that's the way it will be

And I wonder what you're dreaming of
You're so peaceful when you sleep
Everything I want everything I need
Is lying here, in front of me

Oh yeah

And if I ever lose my power to fly
Then your love takes me high
I always fiddle to you
Sometimes I think I might lose that all
Cause the chances so small
Cause ypu hold me close
I feel you near don't let go say you always be here
Just hold me tight and I'll be fine dreaming
You will always be mine

Just like the song
you make me warm inside
like a soft summer breeze
a moment to see so true
I won't stop loving you

And I wonder what you're dreaming of
You're so peaceful when you sleep
Everything I want everything I need
Is lying here, in front of me

Oh no

And if I ever lose my power to fly
Then your love takes me high
I always fiddle to you
Sometimes I think I might lose that all
Cause the chances so small
Cause ypu hold me close
I feel you near don't let go say you always be here
Just hold me tight and I'll be fine dreaming
You will always be mine

And I wonder what you're dreaming of
You're so peaceful when you sleep
Everything I want everything I need
Is lying here, in front of me

And if I ever lose my power to fly
Then your love takes me high
I always fiddle to you
Sometimes I think I might lose that all
Cause the chances so small
Cause ypu hold me close
I feel you near don't let go say you always be here
Just hold me tight and I'll be fine dreaming
You will always be mine

Dreaming
You will always be mine

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I always dig boy bands' songs and up til now 98 Degrees and BSB still rings in my jukebox.. I'm adding this today.

Cheers,
Sinner

a funny note.

Eliza Tan - Yi Li Za Dan?
One ball of bomb? hahahaa

LOL,
Sinner

BUAY TA HAN THIS KIND OF PARENTS...

Quoting from redsport news regarding the change of 2.4km to 5km run for NAPHA test...

“5km? Are they mad? My boy cannot take the sun. It’s so hot in Singapore,” said a parent who didn’t want to be named in case MINDEF targets her boy. “I hope they allow them to run the 5km on a treadmill in an air-con gym.”


WHAT THE FUCK MAN...

NOWADAYS CHILDREN ARE MADE OF PAPER?
OR ICE...???

Wahhhh.... cannot take the sun... must run in air con... next time war also in aircon?? need CONDUCIVE environment right... ?? goodness gracious..

FUCK THOSE GUNIANG CHEE BYE LA...

wah lan eh... BUAY TA HAN BUAY TA HAN BUAY TA HAN.... I READ ALREADY ALSO DAMN TU LAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nowadays really really ridiculous.. can you imagine.. Got ppl bring kid learn swimming.. then when its raining time.. the parent bring umbrella to shield him??

Shit man... Singapore army is gonna be filled with gu niang trainees soon man..

Jialat liao la....

PEK CEK,
Sinner

To hell with excuses.

A very close brother of mine reminded me to write about this post. I'll dedicate this post to ALL of you bummers out there who always tell each other that you do not have time to train for an event or ask "i dun understand why these ppl have so much time to train and go for events like triathlon.. or all the other 'lons...'.. dun they need to make money or work?"...

The case of study is my sex bomb baby.

Working hours:
Wake at 6am.
Work from 7.30 to 7pm at CBD.
Muay Thai on Friday.
Reach training destination:8 PM.
Training start: at 8 sharp
Training end: 10pm ++
Dinner: From training end +30minutes.
Reach home: 12mn.

Repeat that for 7 days. You get her schedule.

Most of the weeks, she only train 2 days.. and the other 2 days will be used for friends/family gathering and/or rest nites.
Of course i made sure every training session was quality, mostly painful ones.. and hell, did she complain like the first time we did an anal fuck or worst..

You see, for me as a swim coach, and the rest who're self employed personnel, CEO of some big companies or simply bo liao ppl who slacks ard and silver spoon fed.. completing the triathlon is NO BIGGIE DEAL.

I only write down abt my tri as a big fuss because this is MY BLOG and I AM a VAIN BASTARD. :)

If you look at it from a neutral point of view, baby's come a fucking long way and there ARE people like her that went for the tri.. they didn't go there to compete with the pros.. they went there with a heart to find a piece of themselves.. a piece that is true to the end and will fight through the strongest tides in their very own life and mind. I am fucking proud of her and that achievement is something I, and those free time ppl will NEVER understand.. taking the littlest times they have for their life and make the best out of it with some healthy training.. i can see that her posture is better now and she is less tired in her daily work life too!

Seriously, all u need is an hour of quality training plus 30 mins of washing up and eating of breakfast.. if u wake at 6am usually to wash up and eat.. then all u need to do is wake at 4.50 to brush ur teeth, get ur gears and get out of the house and start jogging or biking.. or even walking!

Else if u're as hardcore as my baby, just do it every nite after ur fucking stressful job.. she told me this before one of our most siong bike and run training "i cant wait to destress with bike and running.."

and she did a FANTASTIC CRAZY workout that nite that I can't keep up with the number of laps she did too.. i planned 4 sets for her and myself.. bike and run = 1 set... she did 4 sets.. i did 3 and i collapsed mentally.

So i hope u guys who read this.. be motivated and just go and do something! run a 5 k run.. or 10 k.. watever! fuck coming in last.. who will care really? the fact that u're there competing and doing the event already IS mind boggling to those who are just outside taking photos or watching.

If anyone laugh at baby, i'd fucking shove my fucking finger in his/her fucking face.. unless u can do it too with her mad schedule, don't mess with her glory that she rightfully earned. :)

For those REAL bummers.
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If u say u dun have time to workout.. ask urself how much tiem u spend in front of the tv. ask urself how much time u spend in bed before u actually fall asleep.. ask urself how much time u spent reading this or watching porn in the internet..(go fuck somebody and that's a better use of time.. great workout too.).. just do this when u're bumming ard:
2 mins of sit ups continuously, followed by (no rest)
2 mins of pushup continuously, followed by (no rest)
2 mins of plank continuously or in 2 sets of 45 secs repetitions with 15 secs rest, followed by (no rest)
2 mins of squats continuously.

Thats just a fucking 8 mins workout.. and i bet u'd feel damn shag after that no matter how fit u are. if u can do that everyday.. it'd be good enuff. plus climb the stairs.. skip the lift.. skip the card drive to a nearby place.. take a short jog from mrt to ur home.. u're gonna bathe anyway...

so stop giving urself excuses..BREAK OUT OF THAT SLUMP NOW!!! :)

Jiayou ba!

Inspired,
Sinner

PS: I am very happy to have Fu as my riding buddy as of now.. i hope this is something we can do regularly and i hope we can enrol more frens and sincere newbies to come in with our understanding and considerate coaching attitude.. :)

Virgin Tri.

So, baby and I went to our first triathlon yesterday.

Its a sprint.. but it is equally inspirational... most importantly, she COMPLETED IT! and she's not the last! haha.. super uber happy for her..

it was a TOUGH fight man.. especially when we only found out that it is actually TWO loops of bike AND run on that day DURING THE RACE! So, the below are the details...

Ah gong was very kind to drive us and our bike to our race destination.. really very sweet of him... even though I've really just known him for a short while recently.. he's become quite a pillar in my life.. he's too close a resemblance to my late dad and he's interested in bikes too.. i could fix bike with him all night long because i wished i had the chance to do so with my dad.. my dad wanted to teach me how to tighten the spokes too but then he passed away before he got the chance to teach me.. :(

Ok, anyway, butterflies really started to fly in the tummies in the last 10 mins to race start.. esp. for baby.. i was feeling quite normal actually.. despite the swim start was a little more chaotic than i expected it to be.. it was really just taking the beatings and beating others to the first buoy before relaxing until the destination for me... i did a 14minutes swim with abt 60% effort.. was really really surprised...

So, on to the shore i slowly walked up and after i feel my legs gets filled with more blood from standing up, i jogged to the transition.. alot of ppl are walking actually.. i seem to be the only one who's "gua xi gan" (rushing for time in hokkien) in all the transitions...

So, i sat down and drank from the hundred plus bottle we designed to motivate each other! haha.. sweet.. i felt rejuvenated.. and happily i wore my gloves, shoes, helmet and unrack my bike and off i go!
Mounted some distance from the mount line cos it was quite chaotic with some 10s of riders coming out after i walked out (the commentator shouted my name too! hahaha..) of the bike out lane... So off i go.. i was going relaxedly until sweat broke out and i knew i'm ready to go.. I upped my gear to just 1 more and just spun at abt 31 to 32 km/h.. upon u turn, i saw this pretty gorgeous triathlete ang more zhar bor (i'm always chasing them for those who noticed my nick in msn since my aquathlon).. haha.. so yes, she sprint passed me.. and i hesitated for awhile.. then i thought (still got one more lap back and its over.. so why not?).. stupid me.. so i chionged all out to chase her... averaging abt 35 to 37km/hr .. yes uber bikers.. i'm very slow i know.. but that was my highest effort for 2 months of biking can... :Pp

so i finally got her at abt half way back.. then after passed her.. and reaching the "end point" with flying bullet speed then i saw PEOPLE U-TURNING?!.. i was like fuck.. its lap TWO i guess... so i u turned feeling DAMN demoralized... i've lost in the mental battle.. especially when SHE passed me again and this time, i never get to see her tail light ever again..

It took me 3/4 of the way up to recover mentally and physically.. then i averaged 30 to 32 when i sprint back to transition area... racked my bike and changed my shoes... ran out and surprisingly, the bricks we did were more than sufficient for me.. i felt strong almost immediately for the run compared to the first time i did a brick i almost died from running after biking...

HOWEVER.. knowing that bike was screwed cos of lap 2.. "clever" me feels that something like that could happen.. so i went on to ask this uncle jogging and he said "its two laps." then the next thing i thought of is "SHIT.. I'M FUCKING WORRIED ABT BABY.. I WONDER IF SHE GAVE UP AT THE BIKE PART?? AND IF SHE EVER COMPLETE, WILL SHE BE SO SHAGGED THAT SHE'D NOT EVEN WANNA RUN??? WILL SHE FINISH LAST AND FEEL TOTALLY LOSE FACE AND DUN WANNA JOIN EVER AGAIN?!?! FUCK FUCK FUCK... I'M SO FUCKED as a trainer.......:'(.."

So, I continued my run with a steady but demoralized pace.. looking and staring at every passerby's face hoping to see her so i can help her to jiayou.. sigh.. not until i was abt to finish my second round then i finally saw her starting her first round! I shouted to her "dear! 2 laps.. go slow and steady ok!".. Finally i saw her smiling and telling me "i know! its 2 rounds! haha"... i was relieved.. and off i went.. sprinted to the end..

Last 50 meter of my triathlon race was MEMORABLE.. cos there was absolutely NO ONE beside/in front/behind me!!! I looked all around and i thought something went wrong??? did everyone racing got teleported?? Then i felt like "haha.. i know.. i must be the first and the next competitor is 2 minutes behind me.. so.. this is how it feels like." HAHAHAA...

Then the race crews were holding up the finish line for me as they were probably doing for everyone else but then.. there was no one else.. and i race passed it and all the ppl cheered and congratulated me!! haha.. it was SUPER emotional but then i did not rejoice much.

At that moment, it was like biking was very badly done and run was shit.. but FUCK THE TIMING.. I JUST LOVE THIS SPORT AND ITS ATMOSPHERE!!!

I told myself.. "race ain't over. i brought her here.. i'm gonna bring her to the finish line and bring her BACK with GLORY.".. so after seeing kelvin and chatting 2 sentences, i set off for my second round of run after feeding myself with some pokka sports drink they gave...

Finally i found her after seeing SO many ppl with the same suit.. lucky she is wearing green shoes.. haha.. so i found her and i jogged with her in the last 3.75 km.. it was REALLY TOUGH.. for her when her feet are already aching.. and its too slow a pace for me that my knees start to hurt.. haha.. but then again, i was burning with passion to help her to accomplish wat she felt and thought was impossible.. i told her .." walk also must finish! u can do it!"... and she walked/jogged combo all the way til 150m near the finish point..

and this girl named "Celeste" cheered her on and we all ran together for awhile and she went off to claim her entitled position.. whilst I finally offer my hand to her and she offered hers to me.. i grabbed her hands and we both sprinted all the way from the same place i starting my lonely finishing stance until we cross the finishing line.. that was truly.. most faithfully.. undoubtably.. undeniably.. undescribably the MOST INSPIRING MOMENT of my life.. the first and very moment i trained someone from scratch(zero morale, near zero fitness.. =p) to finish a tri without any injuries!

And best of all? She's my sex bomb girlfriend.=D

And the proof to be quite a successful trainer this time is i've successfully infected her with the TRIATHLON BUG!! haha.. just last nite, she asked me this.. "how do u tink we can improve in our bike and run dear?"...

Tell you.. its the FIRST TIME she initiated to ask me how to improve in a sport.. TWO actually. :P

hahaa..

Oh.. come to tink of it.. it was quite an achievement for me too.. first sprint tri with abt 8.75 k run.. recalling my first marathon.. it was abt 43km instead of 42.195 too because of my friend.. i sprinted back 400+m to get him deep heat.. then sprinted back to help him with his shin splint.. but he forced me to go on without him after a while longer.. haha.. its fun and VERY individualized.. :D

Crazy,
Sinner

Nash, & I.

The following are some parts of interview done by steve nash.. my all time favorite nba point guard next to kobe and jason kidd..

This is nothing to do with arrogance but i find some parts of myself in him... and i just wanna write it down in this blog of mine.

As you get a little older, are there things you have to do differently to keep up with the younger players?

Well, you have to work really hard, the older you get. I really feel as good as I've ever felt, but I think you have to work hard and you have to be extremely specific in what you’re doing. You do things with a purpose. I really have to think about what I’m doing. Even when I play soccer in the summer, I'm consciously and subconsciously thinking about how I'm moving, making sure that I'm using the right muscles, using the right sequences, leading from the center, all these things that allow me to reinforce things that (1) will make me a better athlete and (2) prevent me from being injured.

------------ I've always trusted there's a right way to move things.. and Mr chan's right... the State's physiotherapists.. are movement specialists indeed... I'm just glad I have you, Mr chan (and my buddy mich.) .. :D


So you're consciously thinking of this during soccer games?

I think about it in the moments I can, and hopefully those moments allow it to become second nature in the moments that you're concentrating on something else. I think what's happened over years of training and thinking about it, it becomes something that is either second nature or is easy to get back when you lose it.

------------ Those who know how I train should know clearly that's what i do in my practice/training sessions.. i never believed in wacking your body ever since i picked up personal training seriously.


You've said that you were raised in a pretty laid-back family, there wasn't a lot of pressure put on you. So where did it all come from?

Well, it's natural. I don't know, I didn't have a choice, it's just the way I am. I think I'm a high-energy person to start with. I'm really passionate about things I enjoy, and I like to be out there doing things, and learning and challenging myself. So it's just more fun that way, just to get out and try and do and learn and meet people and try to do something new.

--------- Yups thats me indeed.. no pressure from family since young.. just born with my own work-ethics.. so very westernized but reared in a hokkien family with my dad, late dad, still against pre marital sex. :D


Are there days when you just can't get that (good shooting) rhythm?

Of course. Who knows, maybe some days it's biorhythms, but I think generally days when you have bad rhythm is when you have tired legs. Your legs are really the whole driving force to shooting. Rhythm is easy when you got your legs underneath you.

--------- Trust me, I know what he's saying.. back in those days when I was sinking Threes in threes in a row, make that many many rows.. nicknamed bunny by ms jacjac auntie.. cos i got good legs.:P

If masturbation is a sin... esp. after sexual days... then.... i've...

Sinned,
Sinner

A hearty stay, where tears fade...

It is funny why I enjoy chatting with ah gong and ah ma and even sam's auntie so much compared to her.. nvm..

When I was chatting with ah gong and ah ma.. it almost felt like i was chatting with my very own ah ma and also, my dad.. 3 days from now.. and it'd be one yr since he last chatted with me.. and asked me to slp early whilst he goes to work just like any other time.. but this time, he never came back... :'(

Anyway, I wished so much I have endless time to chat with ah gong and ah ma.. no matter how tired I was the whole day.. I just tried so hard to find topics to chat with them and have good laugh with them.. I wish.. I was able to chat like that with dad.. and ah ma.. instead of taking them for granted in the numerous ways many youngsters do...

If given a chance, I'd buy them breakfast lunch dinner supper.. watch tv with them.. chat with them non stop and hear their stupid endless ramblings of silly nothingness.. It is pure bliss..

No one saw but I shed tears thrice throughout the day.. I can't help but miss my dad so much.. I always tell them its bullshit that our family wasn't allowed to go visit my dad's urn.. but deep inside I was actually kinda glad.. because I don't know how to handle my own emotions.. let alone see my mum breakdown into crying madness and start talking abt the good old days.

I feel so weak and powerless..

If I have to pinpoint 1 of the few things to be stressed abt.. Its this.
I miss him so much.. yet I can't bring myself to do anything.. I fear, the tears and uncontrollable emotions. :'(

Everytime I imagined dad on the hospital bed just before he passed away.. I'd breakdown.. He was.. so strong.. so fit.. so functional and everything.. and life has to end just before i could bring him to some sort of holiday that i planned for after truly being able to work and save up some money.

HE SURVIVED THE THROAT CANCER BUT WHY NOT THE FUCKING FEVER?!?!?!?!?!??!?!!!!!

FUCK THE PNEUMONIA.

I ride so hard yesterday by myself because I miss seeing my dad riding his bicycle..

Why do I wanna do triathlon?

I want to be like him...

I want to ride a bike just like he did til old..

I want to swim in the sea just like how he did when he was a fisherman's son.. he always boast how well he can dive and swim at age 18..

I want to run because he was the fastest runner in kampung.

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I just wish...

We had more time....

Tearful,
Sinner.

Iron Man vs Normal ppl.

I'm talking abt full iron man racers.

The difference between them.. is that Normal ppl always questions "Can I?" in any challenging situations..

Whereas, Iron Men tells themselves "I can." in ANY given situation.

I Believe I Can. And I'll prove it next yr.
Sinner.

Tonite's training review.

Me:

In actual fact, I was going out there feeling a little sluggish but I tried to brace up so my sweetheart can feel more motivated and less grumbling.. Things got a little better for me into my 10th lap of swim as I noticed there's this uncle with pretty bad strokes catching up with me.. pretty interesting.. I was just slightly ahead of him for the next 4 laps and he hung in there.. on the last lap, I kinda went 85% and didn't see him beside me until 10 secs after i reached the end. I stopped and he continued. Interesting guy even though I didn't see his face.

The rest of the bike, and run was pretty ok for me cos its not really my training day, its about her today.

So..

Her:

During the swim, I felt she was a little sluggish and seemed quite alone.. in the sense that she feels that she's so far away from me and she's gonna do an incredible distance tonight and just not up for the whole thing... the no phone for whole day thing just seem quite wearing too.

Whatever that was, her swim was pretty normal, nothing fantastic but nothing bad either.

Her bike was pretty strong I thought, averaging about 3km/hr More than her usual speed at the beginning until she kinda bonk into a wall after abt 15mins (probably due to insufficient carbohydrate and lack of mental preparation. Solutions to be discussed later.

We shortened the route and we went back to get our shoes for the run..

So, the run..

I was in fact quite impressed with her run. I knew from the bike that she couldn't carry on.. still, i pushed her on.. Yes I'm kinda risking her tears and her quitting everything and also disowning me here and then.. but I believe if i discount my trainee (whoever it is, however young or old), I am being unfair to them.

She conquered her sluggish mind for 8 times and we finally reached about 1/3 of the run distance and we turned our engine off for dinner. That was really fantastic.. it shows she's really trying no matter how much her mouth was fucking things up. It shows she really wants to get out of that sluggish state but her mind was still on the winning end. It wasn't bad.

I just don't understand why some ppl have to tell themselves "I stopped 8 times leh!!!"... why can't you tell yourself "I conquered my mind and body 9 times.. because i started running again everytime i stopped!.." And the next time, I'm gonna fight it til the end.. I'm gonna win the battle RIGHT FROM THE START!

Its not about the result.. but how much you put in to fight yourself and your own lousy attitude when the going gets tough..

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Back then when I was in officer cadet course, I was hated because I push everyone too hard and expected everyone to perform like me. Now, I find that I still do that, but not in terms of physical capabilities but mental toughness. I understand that not all the non sporty ppl around me can swim like me, bike or run like me.. but what really matters is that they know how to push on when their mind starts saying no.

One very easy way to do so is to set yourself mental milestones in the bike/run.

Next traffic light, one more traffic light, one more lamp post, just one more stretch, until the bend.. com'on.. just 1 more minute.. Start counting down on the 60and really slowly to 1.. before you know it, you'd be at the end already.

All those are useful self talk.. Anyway, can't afford to not do the sprint distance by this sunday. Have to complete even if have to walk to the end. That's the minimum.. so we know where we stand and what to expect on race day. To prevent also a heart attack.

Remember dear, its about the Glory of becoming a triathlete that your dad, adam, and all the chest pumpers and morning swimmers dare not try.. You have what it takes.. Definitely have. I remember the very first time you go jogging with me and you finished 7km without any training. Who can do that? 2/10 maybe? Last time when i didn't train, i can't even complete a 1.6/2.4..

So yes, everytime you do your tri training and race.. remember.. its abt doing yourself proud. Its abt enjoying the atmosphere and its abt SPEEDING ON THE GOD DAMN ROAD BIKE BABY!!!!!!!!! :D

Let the Tough gets going,
Sinner

PS: Congrats dear, you're unofficially a triathlete. :)

Which one should i get???

Top choice for myself.. because its a watch...

http://cgi.ebay.ca/NEW-POLAR-RS800CX-BIKE-CS-w%2FSPEED-CADENCE-IrDA-NEW-2009_W0QQitemZ220383141301QQcmdZViewItemQQimsxZ20090324?IMSfp=TL090324123001r2788

Second choice... This thing got GPS and displays the god damn map (provided u download it...)!
But again, I could get a Iphone for that.... and Iphone's real time mapping somemore..

http://cgi.ebay.com/GARMIN-Edge-705-GPS-w%2F-Heart-Rate-Cadence-Speed-Bundle!_W0QQitemZ110365743478QQcmdZViewItemQQimsxZ20090319?IMSfp=TL090319121001r16777

I am very much inclined to RS800CX.... It is also cheaper.. by 9dollars.. haha.. 610 vs 619.. Plus Garmin's battery is not normal battery.. and runtime is only less than 12 hrs... zzz..

Wish wish wish....

Sinner

Old sch fun. New days come.

Went cycling with Fu and Hao after training..

Cycled on sam's ETAPE 3 instead of my ah gong bike..

REVIEW: it was AMAZINGLY COMFY! no wonder she never complain at all.. my first BH bike was SO damn zzzz... in fact, my ah gong race fit is also quite tiring.. and the weird thing is her carbon fork with alu steerer and alu bar seem to absorb vibrations as well as my full carbon fork with alu bar! Anyway, it is a joy to ride.. definitely a good commuting bike! Racing, entry level still not too bad. A definite good buy for first timers looking for a good virgin experience! As much as the parts are crap cos of the tiers in shimano terms.. 8 spd is actually not at all limiting.. unless you can sprint like L.A.S.. that way, even chorus 12 speed also not enuff la...

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So yes the only pain in the ass (literally) is her saddle.. male and female anatomy different ba.

HAHA..

So yeah, fu rode my bro's commencal VIP Nuts 5 with rigid fork *damn fast!* and hao rode my Santa Cruz Chammy *my fav!*
Hao complained that his ass is ssooooooo painful!!! hehehe... selle italia suits me big time.. my big time favorite.. but it is not for him.. :P Fu also pain from ysterday's ride... i guess they're not used to it la.. we rode to bukit panjang and ate zhu cao.. goodness i ate so much lor..
haha.. our stamina have quite a bit sio.. next ride : WEST COAST!!!

oh yes.. hopefully i can find a decent fork to bring fu to trail!!! its gonna be so fun!!!

So glad i have ppl who work odd hours like me to go training with... thank God..

Love,
Sinner

Tears..

Sometimes, ppl tend to put on a strong front.. not because they want to but they have to.. to protect their pride.. to protect their job.. to protect their life so it won't collapse..

Somehow, I have this pair of eyes that can see through loads of things.. and tonight, I saw through this little girl who appears to be enjoying her new job so much because it poses so many challenges.. but in actual fact, it is way out of her comfort zone.. I saw through.. also because I've been dating this lovely girl for 3yrs + already.. I know where is her comfort zone and where is not.. and as far as I've went to push her to come out and be a lady, focused in whatever she do and be rugged.. there're some buttons I never tried to push because I know it'll cause her tears and loads of hurts..

But this job does. And its good.. For once, I found our training to be so fruitful because she is so focused.. the moment she stepped into my house, she ate, got changed and went to the washroom, then got her bike out in a matter of 15mins.. thats so unlike of her. super efficient babe. I like.

However, I know tonite has to be that nite.. when she gets relieved..

So I saw this pimple behind her back.. and I know she can't stand pain.. so I decided to give this strong front an excuse to cry some tears and get the thing flowing..

It worked.. and I hope my talking to her has resolved her culture shocked state of mind and also helped her set her record/target straight on what is she trying to achieve and not over trying to be what she can't be in 3 days.

You can't train up to be a 100m sprinter over 3 days if you hasn't been running at all for the past 22 yrs aint it?

Sometimes, its just very hard for the ones involved to be so clear headed.. especially if the one involved is an ambitious one who cares TOO MUCH for other's perception of her behaviors and existence even for her own good.

I guess the time for change has finally come.. and our relationship will now go through a real phase of work/sports/pte time juggling. Which I am glad.. because I'm ready to see her morph from the cocoon into a beautiful butterfly..

Cheers,
Sinned Cyclist.

PS: Training is good tonite.. :) and its gonna get better than ever.