Colorgenics.

As oppose to Fu's findings.. I find mine 65% close to what I am.. :)

Firstly and seriously I try very hard to be low profile in the things I do.. even though some actions (like wearing loud colors) seem to be opposite of this thinking of mine.

Also, I don't seek recognition from people.. neither do I give a damn to people's tinking if they're impressed with me or feel that I'm a nuisance in their world.

Those who're close to me will know I am a "accept me as who I am, this is ME or just fuck off." kinda person.

But yes, I'd agree I am VERY capable of achieving satisfaction through PhysiCal ActiVIty.. :)

I don't feel there is any gap between baby and me.. Our body fits perfectly into each other in EVERY single hugging/sitting/corpulating position you can tink of.

Emotionally too. =)

I also strongly disagree with this:
"You are afraid that you may not be able to realise or achieve your hopes and desires and so you insist that people should accept you as you are and appreciate your rights to anything that you aspire to."

What I want to realise/achieve has nothing to do with the people around me accepting me as who i am and appreciating my rights to anything i aspire to.

I want to be an iron man. Deca Iron man in many yrs down the road. And only through MYSELF, can I achieve that. Period.

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Anyway, here it goes.

You are very ambitious and because you seek and need recognition, you try in your own way to impress people and you want to be looked up to - to be both popular and admired. You feel that there is a gap which separates you from your fellow man, or woman as the case may be, but this anxiety is an unnecessary one. Keep on the way you are going and you may surprise yourself.

Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be 'loved'.

There are times of everyone's life when 'compromise' is the name of the game and this is the time, so you have no alternative but to forgo some pleasures for the time being. You are capable of achieving satisfaction through physical activity.

You are on tenterhooks and appear to be extremely nervous and upset. You are bored and you feel that life has far more to offer than this present day mundane existence. The way that you feel indicates that you have the need for a responsive and understanding relationship. You are prepared to follow up any opportunity which may present itself. However you are very choosy and you refuse to be swept off your feet unless integrity can proved to be 100% genuine. Therefore you are holding back, keeping your emotions in check because before you let down your guard you have to be sure. You are too trusting and you have no desire to be hurt again. You are responsive to conditions around you - but forever under control.

You are afraid that you may not be able to realise or achieve your hopes and desires and so you insist that people should accept you as you are and appreciate your rights to anything that you aspire to.



ALrightie.. Back to slp..
Sinner.

PS: the above disagreement does not come in any form of ego/pride defence. Just a shed of true colors of my very inner self. =) Why? like it said, I trust too easily.. and you too, my readers.. are one of those I trust my thoughts to. =)

Another Tri prac

If buddy reads this, she's gonna behead me.. Nevertheless I have to write down the improvements. :)

Me: 20laps 70% effort swim with a draggy suit (sugoi.. zzz).. in 21mins.

Baby: 16 laps in 20mins (mixture of FS and BS)

Me: 26~28K bike (Out sprinted a bicycle converted to motor bicycle over a distance of 1km? lol.. to be fair, that lousy engine was having 2 riders on it. I could hear them shouting "CHIONG AR.. CHIONG AR~~~"..) :P but I nv see them since I passed them around the corner.. lol

Baby: 20K bike (Feeling strong~ need more feedback from her though)

Me: 7K run in 40mins flat (abt 80% HR), hit 5K run in 28mins flat (2 mins better than the 30minutes i clocked for the sprint tri considering i actually stopped to pee and walked abt 200m with baby)..

Baby: 5.2k in 50mins. Walk + Jog

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Overall conclusion of practice:

My run sucks. So does baby's run.

Baby need to learn how to ride and drink.. Must come my home prac with mountain bike first.. easier.

I need to get better at navigation.

Baby's body is not happy with concentrated 100plus... Need to try something else.. diluted, maybe? HTwoO maybe? Or perhaps can try powergel..

I need to learn to free hand to feed myself on the bike....

I tried to ride at the 4th last gear instead of the 3rd last.. but i can't seem to keep it at 85 to 95 RPM.. leg not enuff power... i must train harder..

Alright.. damn tired.. just finished preparing for bro's race stuff..

Nites,
Sinner

Beautiful song.. from SM's blog :)

Sweetheart..
Thank you so much for being here to hug and massage me and give me that orgasmic cure to my fever and gastro flu symptoms.. your magical pussy juice cured my headache once and for all when the usual ibuprofen when taken in twice the dosage won't even help...

Instead of just posting the song here to dedicate to you.. I'm gonna write you a poem.. It ain't gonna be beautiful.. neither is it gonna be as pretty as i want it to be.. but with my beatened body.. I shall try.. to give you something you're worthy. :)

So, sweetie..

Your hugs eased my worries..
Your kisses soothes my soul..
Your touch left me speechless..
Your love is unconditionally special..
Your caresses left me in fuzzy dizzy..

Sweet words as they may be..
But true heart speaks..
None could judge the deed..
Only you and I could understand..
The meaning deep within..

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Collin Raye's "The Gift"



Winter snow is falling down
Children laughing all around
Lights are turning on like a fairy tale come true

Sittin' by the fire we made
You're the answer when I prayed
I would find someone and baby I found you

And all I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more everyday
You saved my heart from being broken apart
You gave your love away
And I'm thankful everyday
For the gift

Watching as you softly sleep
What I'd give if I could keep
Just this moment if only time stood still

But the colors fade away
And the years will make us gray
But baby in my eyes you'll still be beautiful

And all I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more everyday
You saved my heart from being broken apart
You gave your love away
And I'm thankful everyday
For the gift

All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more everyday
You saved my heart from being broken apart
You gave your love away
I can't find the words to say
And I'm thankful everyday
for the gift

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Everyday we just wanna hold each other longer... How true. :)

Favorite Hugs,
Sinner

What a ride.

Am supposed to rest today.. but resting for 7 straight days just ain't me.

Went to ride with fu in the early morning.. wanted a relax ride plus my training wheels punctured last nite out of no reason.. so i switched to my race wheels to ride.. was able to easily maintain 35kph over the straight routes but been inactive outdoor for too long and thus the climbs hurt quite abit.. but i am started to learn to enjoy the pain.. :)

Can almost easily get in and out of aero position le.. more riding should help gain more confidence.. I am very impressed with fu's ability to handle the bike with such gracious ease! Serious.. all frank.

Was just cruising all along other than the cck road and also on the way back after breakfast.. it was a hard and fast sprinting 5k at the end because it was abt to rain.. fucking hate the traffic light.. would have completely missed the downpour if not for the traffic lights and also i find the learning cars rather irritating because they keep doing unpredictable moves.. now i know how irritating i am.. :D

I think I micro tore something in my left butt.. quite deep inside.. i heard a slight "piak" when i was doing split and pushing to go lower yesterday...

Like i was telling sam.. I really have high hopes in Shirley's teaching and I hope to climb up the positions in future races with her help and my own perserverance and passion for the sport!

Hopefully, I can influence more ppl to join me in the sports too.. cycling is joint stress free if set up properly and i've bought the trainer and i can now help to set the ppl up le.. gonna read up more on all the how and why and what to do for setting ppl up on the bikes.. Swimming is good for the upper body muscles and running is uber cool for the legs' bone density. That leaves the core strength the only missing link from triathlon training being a wholistic fitness practice.. :)

Seriously, I wanna dig more into this and hopefully i can be a triathlon trainer too other than a personal trainer and swimming instructor.

I remember gary saying this to me when i told him i finished and passed lifesaving instructor course some time after i passed swim instructor course... "WAH LAO.. U WANNA DO WAT? I TELL U.. IN LIFE.. DO THINGS MUST FOCUS .. THEN U CAN SUCCEED!"...

I think the focus i have.. is SPORTS and WHOLISTIC FITNESS as one. Shortly after his comments.. i took up fitness instructor course and i passed it too.. Now just waiting to pass NSCA CPT course...

All the best to me..

Sporty,
Sinner

Easy?

Nobody said anything is gonna be easy in life.. But it makes a difference when you try it and when you don't.

Pain is temporary, Quitting vs Glory is FOREVER.

Monday I'm officially starting my training for HIM.. am very excited abt it and I place high hopes for myself in what I want to achieve vs what I think I can achieve.. I want to live up to it..

Better start eating and sleeping healthy~

Never say Die,
Always say CAN!,
Sinner